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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. - April 17th 2018, 07:18 PM
You have no idea how scary this feels to me. And I have to integrate the past and the present at the same time, and you don't even know what's going on in the present. And getting paranoid. And changing things. And I can't accept nice stuff because it feels bad. I feel sick. Just need to sleep. I'm sorry. I don't mean to be mad. I'll be okay.

The thing is, its like a repeat of like 2014-2016 or whatever year it was. But like different because it's not what you think. And then like the other guy is like in a psych ward and I can guess whats wrong but you know ignorance is bliss. And then the other guys I don't think I should trust, but I worry in case it's too late.

I understand though. I can't imagine. I'm just feeling sick. How can they do that??

And I'm not ready. I still get paranoid and I am nowhere near finished with counselling. I thought it was but life does that weird thing where obviously I'm not.

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