I'm struggling a lot with these obsessive thoughts. I know I have ocd. I've only ever talked about it vaguely. I addressed it therapy and all I was told was I needed to talk to my psychiatrist.

There was no discussion on how to work on it in therapy.

It's taken me a long time to realize it's not just OCD tendencies... It's ocd. It's just more obsessive thinking and less compulsion. I still do thing out of compulsion but the obsession is the issue.

I'll talk to the therapist I'm seeing on the first and I'll talk to my psychiatrist on the 5th...but idk.

I just hate the thoughts. I hate the obsession. I want it to stop.

I don't want to be annoying. I don't want to torment myself.

I just am not sure how to cope with the thoughts. I know what's suggested for the more compulsive things and I try doing that. If my mind tells me I have to end on an even chapter or a derivitive of five... I challenge myself to only read to chapter three. It helps sometimes and I'm sure there are other ways to cope but it does help.

I have no real idea how to stop the obsessive thinking so a therapist and my psychiatrist will have to help.