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Re: Screaming thread. -
January 13th 2018, 05:14 AM
I don’t want to die. I don’t want my eating disorder to kill me. I want to be alive, but how can I live when living means eating and eating means getting fat? Getting fatter. I can’t get fatter. I can’t. All of this is too much to handle. I don’t want to read this book anymore. I wish no one knew about the disorder. I wish I cut those friends out of my life because they’re the only ones who notice and them knowing risks everything for me. I just need to be thin. Once I’m thin, il be okay and I can. Eat again. But I have to be thin first. It’s not optional.
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