[Tigereyes]

I can't make friends. I'll never be able to. It hurts to much to try and I'm already in enough pain, but you say I have to make other friends, but I've already tried and failed.
I've lost everyone. Not trying is the only way to reduce the pain. I wish I had died three and a half years ago before I could have hurt everyone as much as I have now. I'm a piece of shit. I don't deserve friends. I don't deserve to get better. I deserve to lose myself in whatever fucking substance can make me best forget the shit person I am. I don't want to live. I just wish somehow I'd die so I don't have to kill myself because an accident would hurt everyone less.