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Re: Complaint of the Day 2 -
December 31st 2017, 06:30 AM
Why is there such a discrepancy between the woman I see in the mirror and the woman I see in photographs? I was looking through the pictures we took today, and I look skinny in all of them. I look skinny and small and breakable. But the woman in the mirror is a giant. She’s horribly oversized and obsese and could break everyone around her. I weighed myself when I got home, and the number I saw is significantly higher than what it was this morning and all I want to do is go to the gym because when I work out I’m safe. I ate too much because family was around all day and they’re already beginning to catch on. I’m so close to underweight, I just have to get there first.
Starve Erin, starve. That’s the only thing that can keep you safe anymore. Starve. No more food. It doesn’t matter what people say, you’re an adult. No one can make you do anything. Starve. No one can stop you. But you’re too fucking weak to starve properly anymore. What happened to you? You’re going to get fatter. The number will keep going up if you eat anything, and then you’ll be so upset you’ll kill yourself. Just starve. You’re safer if you’re smaller.
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