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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
November 27th 2017, 10:58 PM
Stop. Making. A. Joke. About. My. Eating. Disorder.
I am not doing this for attention. I am not vainly attempting to lose weight so I can look good for some guy. I'm not a stereotype. I'm your friend, and I'm hurting. I never told you about the eating disorder, but you figured it out. Or at least, I think that you have. Off-handed comments like the one you made today makes me certain that you know, but you don't care. You recognize that I don't eat, you recognize that I'm insecure; you know that I'm always tired and cold and I'm increasingly irritable. You spend entire days with me, and you know I'm lying when I tell you I've eaten. You know how much weight I've lost. You know there's something wrong so please just say it.
A lot of the comments you are making trivializes the eating disorder. I'm struggling to see it as a problem, and your behavior toward it is only making things harder for me. I love you dearly, you're one of my best friends. But I can't stand you doing this to me. I don't have the words, or the courage, to tell you what's going on. Please, just say something. I'm terrified of you knowing, but I know that once you know the truth, I have to move forward toward recovery. I don't have another option. Recovery has to happen, or I'm going to die. I can't do this on my own, but I'm too afraid to tell anyone.
Please, just say it. You're allowed to ask me, but please stop making it into a joke.
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