[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

I am scared and I don't want to feel like this because of the two things that have happened. I don't want to tell you that I am feeling like this because I am going to upset you and that is why I have just been keeping it to myself for a while and I need to find a way to make it so that I am not scared anymore. When we all went to the ballet last week I kept looking around to make sure that everything was ok and no one was going to come in and hurt us. And I don't mean to feel like this, come on E, you need to pull yourself together and be ok. I don't want to have fear ruling my life, I don't mean to feel like this. I have to find something to take this pain that I am feeling away and I need it to go away fast. Because on Thanksgiving we are going to see another show and I don't want to still feel like this, and I want to have an amazing time with my family.