Im sorry.
Im sorry Im pathetic,Im sorry I hide things from you.
Im sorry I hide my feelings from you.
Im sorry Im so angry,depressed,stress,anxious all the time.
Im sorry I thought of killing myself many times.
Im ACTUALLY not sorry I hide my feelings
Im not sorry I suffer In Silence
Im sorry Im not good enough for you
Im not sorry that all of this is my fault,
Its my fault for feelng so depressed,for having social anxiety, for being so fucking damn annyoing around you guys (family),Its my fault im so angry at myself for not being the greatest for getting All A's in school. I try but its not enough for you, I know that, and for that I hate myself,
Im sorry if I show up on the news from suicide, the tears youll cry, the days you'll cry, Im sorry if it happens. Its just I cant handle anymore
I cant handle myself
I hate myself
I keep my feelings to myself because I dont ever talk or plan to
I fucking hate myself
I just might actually die
But I'm to scared to kill myself so im stuck in this hell of stress and depression
It was great knowing you all
especially Casper, thanks for ALWAYS being there for me I love you the most best friend
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