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Re: Screaming thread. -
October 14th 2017, 04:40 AM
Today, I talked on the phone with an eating disorder clinic. I had to call them back because when I saw that number calling me, my entire body froze and I was so paralyzed in fear that I literally was in pain. Everything hurt. On top of that, I was at work and the therapist office is across from me so that's fucking fun when I'm struggling. It's not my therapist that works in there, but I know they know each other. And I know she doesn't talk about me to others, she wouldn't anyway, but especially due to the position my job puts me in I know she really wouldn't talk to anyone there. I want to email her and tell her I got in contact with the clinic, but I'm not even sure if I'm going to go to support group on Tuesday. No point in telling my therapist I'm going, and then not going.
I'm a little drink and now I'm drinking more so I can be really drunk. It's this, or cut. I already cut this week. Drinking is fine.
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