[Skyline]

My art course starts this Monday, and I was looking for the details about the exact time I need to be there at the school..... I found this facebook group for the art school, and reading through some of the posts I'm feeling so nervous about this. I really have trouble in social situations, I get very insecure, self-conscious, anxious... Reading through the posts has made me feel panicky and teary, I just feel really really really nervous about having new peers and having to make new friends and be in a new class and have people see me for the first time and make their judgements on me.

I haven't been put in this position since the begining of high school. I've had the same 3 close friends for the past three years, other more distant friends have come and gone but I never made much of an effort to socialise with them because I get anxious, I guess I did do more socialising towards the end of high school since I started hanging out with my boyfriend's friends (and even then I felt anxious most of the time), but nothing on this scale. What's more since I don't know the school I'm also going to be out of my comfort zone in that sense, so I'll have to ask people for directions to my room and whatnot...

Ughhhh. I know two guys who are going there, and although we're amicable we don't know each other very well and I feel awkward around them, so I wouldn't feel comfortable "clinging" to them anyway. If anything the thought of them there makes me even MORE anxious, bc I'm scared that I'll end up clinging to them the whole time and being irritating.

This is just how I'm feeling.... I don't know why I'm posting this, I doubt that anyone could say something that would actually calm me down and make me feel better. Guess this is just to vent. yeah......