[Celyn]

I understand the pressure to do well in the subjects you are interested in. But I also think that we tend to learn more about the things we find interesting, so maybe this will go in your favour. And if not, it's totally acceptable to change your studies or career path.

I'm sorry to hear that you don't have friends and that the ones you did have weren't good for you. It's interesting that you made the link between your low self-worth and lack of good friends. When we feel unworthy in general, we can also feel unworthy of good friends too, which can make making friends difficult as we may just think that we don't deserve them. But despite how you feel about yourself, it is still possible to form healthy friendships, even if it just takes a bit more effort. Also, even if you don't have friends, it doesn't mean that you have to stay hidden in your room. What about if you went out even if by yourself? You never know what people you might come across who could potentially be friends if you stay hidden in your room.

Another thing to remember is to not put pressure on yourself. When we put pressure on ourselves it can make us feel much worse if things don't go to plan. Even if worst case scenario you don't make friends now, it doesn't mean that you won't make friends when you go to a 4 year school next year (for me, I spent years of school alone, right until the last year, where I made 1 friend, then went to university, and made a small group of friends, so it is possible!)

You should be yourself, as clichéd as that sounds. It's no good pretending to be someone your not. I don't think anyone is going to judge you by your age as when you are 17 and 18, it's often common to socialise with others who are a little younger or older. Try whatever approach you feel comfortable with, and it may help to look for those with similar interests as you so clubs may definitely help and it won't make you look weird at all.