[Kate*]

There's a reason I gave up on this shit!! It's going to be completely fucking pointless. Now I spiraled myself and legit made myself sick. I did the best I could under the circumstances and considering that it's only been an issue once in over 2 years, it's probably not a big deal.

You were wrong about absolutely EVERYTHING and I'm going to end up dead mostly because of you. There has been literally zero point to the last 15 fucking years.

I hate the fact that I'll never know if it would've been possible some other way or if I just can't let go. It must be impossible, but then why do I want it so badly? And if it is possible why can no one with this do it. Actually, they can! So why can't I, did I really bring this on myself? Considering what I'm left with, these are valid questions!

There will be no answers and I will be the unlucky one with the horrible life that did nothing to cause it. I will give up for good, I swear.