[Racso]

I recently finished my second full year of college and I feel like I have completely wasted the experience so far. Going into my freshman year I had numerous goals and expectations for myself and I have achieved nothing. I wake up every morning hating myself for achieving nothing. I have failed two classes and have fallen to the disaster of laziness and procrastination. I do not feel as if my friends support me, as they usually only care about getting me to go out with them on the weekends because I am "fun to party with." I literally have no idea what I am doing and feel as if I am just wasting my mother's money on some damn liberal arts education. I wish I could go back in time and change so much. I get anxiety attacks now and again over how stressed and worried I am about my future. I am depressed all the time and find myself putting on a fake smile for everyone I come into contact with during the day. I need honest advice. I do not need to hear the same old bullshit "everything will be ok." Because in all reality it will not be. I need legit and honest advice.