[Kate*]

So much for trying to be active and fix shit. First my therapist leaves, then the psychiatrist is leaving so I'll only see her once after waiting almost 4 months. Finally heard from VR, but I can't do anything for at least a week because of the fucking air conditioner and my God damn grandmother! And last night was another night with literally ZERO fucking sleep! Just kill me. And people who call from work should really use a landline!

I told you everything was pointless and that if you did it I would never recover. And I'm right every fucking time about everything bad.

I'm not unemployed because I don't know how to do a fucking job search or because I'm not trying, and the only problem with my resume is that there's nothing on it. I'm unemployed because I'm impaired across the board and not qualified for shit! I should just die instead. At least the stuff I complain about is unsolvable, legitimate as hell, and I didn't bring any of it on myself.