[Kate*]

You have NO IDEA how hard I'm resisting reacting to you right now. This "tough love" comparing pain and "snap out of it" shit doesn't work on us, Down playing the effects of a DISABILITY and calling MENTAL ILLNESS "just life" is despicable, but the last thing I want is you to come after me next. But NO our struggle isn't just like everyone else's and just because we're depressed does NOT mean we aren't "dealing with it" Just SHUT UP. You're not better than any of us because of the "choices" you make. I make the choice to ignore her, you could've done the same thing. When it collapses your entire fucking life through no fault of your own and you've managed against your better judgement NOT to kill yourself get back to me!!!!!

And why do I want it back right now?! Over two years and the desire is still there. It's going to be with me for life, isn't it?