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I thought I could stay mad at you but turns out, I can't. Know why? I just dont care anymore. I don't need you to feel good about myself. Yeah, it still hurts you went to every one of his basketball games, only to watch him sit on the sidelines the whole game because he's ineligible, but on the rare occasion that we have a home track meet, you could care less. I'm so used to it by now.

It still hurts, in the back of my mind its always a tiny prick of pain like a needle, but...

I realize I stopped needing you a long time ago. Thanks for making me so detached from you all. And you wonder why I could never talk to you about anything, especially how I was feeling. Its almost enough to make me laugh.