[Jess~]

trigger warning: discusses rape and sexual behaviors.

you haven't lost it yet?
well that's a surprise.
seeing as how you dress,
i thought it'd be otherwise.

you haven't lost it yet?
well aren't you a prude.
can't say i'm surprised,
but still, send me nudes.

so you'll do oral,
is that really it?
why not go all the way,
lets just get it over with.

so you'll do oral,
what, are you a slut?
you're moving so fast,
that's all college stuff.

damn, you were raped?
now you're a half-virgin.
your pussy's already dirty,
but no experience is a burden.

damn, you were raped?
but, did you like it?
chill, it's just sex,
you should've let yourself enjoy it.

you already lost it?
well that's a surprise.
who would sleep with you?
they must be desperate guys.

you already lost it?
well aren't you a slut.
all guys want a virgin,
tough luck whore, now what?

***

i've seen a few poems like this, where it kind of highlights society's hypocrisy and double-standards. basically everyone gets hated for everything and that's just life.
however, i wanted to look specifically at my experience with virginity and how fucked up its been. as if the experiences weren't bad enough, the comments i got and society's general message towards certain labels made everything so much worse.
each stanza is a different stage of my experience, along with the opinions people gave me on my own life.

obviously it's an angry poem, and i think i have every right to be angry at the people and society around me who made me, and many other people, feel inferior because of bad experiences and mistakes and choices i made.
i've learned to try and ignore the hate, and just do me. that's all you can do, right?
if people are gonna talk shit on you no matter what, why not do whatever you want?