[rosepetal]

so tired of everything. feeling like nothing will get better like im never going to be happy/actually be able to do the things I want, feels like life is not worth living and I don't want to be alive if i can't get rid of my anxiety enough to do all the things i want. which feels impossible. id rather stay how i am, stay self harming than get a bit better but not enough
i just don't want to be alive rn. i hate that my dad never shows any love or care or interest and never apologises. why has he caused so much pain he doesn't seem to know or care, he'd never understand he just makes excuses. i wish he knew how much i hate him i am so sick of him