[Celyn]

Hey there (welcome to TeenHelp! Love your username by the way!)

I don't think your parents are mean. They do care about you and want you to succeed, perhaps even better than themselves. Like you said, I think that they may not realise how their attitude towards you is affecting you.

I think you are doing really well with your grades- A's and B's are fantastic! It's also good that you are able to balance school and a social life too.

You are a little while off from college yet, but it's good that you would like to go. I understand that your parents may be creating extra pressure for you and it doesn't help if they call you lazy. Perhaps you can let them know that you work hard and would prefer them to encourage you rather than say you are lazy?

It can be easy to get distracted and start doodling on your homework, but art is good and can even be helpful when you want to express your emotions. I'm sorry your parents don't see it like that (mine didn't either)...perhaps they don't view art as important as a subject like maths or science? Either way, that's their opinion and if you want to study art at college some day, you should aim for that!

I'm sorry that you were panicking over the biology test. It feels awful doesn't it, not just getting the grade back, but realising that you have to tell your parents and knowing they might not take it so well. If it ever happens again, try to calm down by doing deep breathing and reminding yourself that you need to concentrate on your next class, and will worry about how to break the news later. It's good that your mom was okay with re-sitting. I think that's another important thing to remember; grades aren't everything and if you do fail, you can always have the chance of re-sitting. Perhaps you can talk to your mom and let her know that you were worried about how she would react when she found out about your biology test? Let her know that you already felt bad when you got the grade back, and were worried about feeling worse when you had to tell her your grade.

Your parents may want what they think is best for you, but ultimately it's your life. If you want to go to college to study art, they can't stop you. Your happiness matters more than your reputation in the family. If your family won't support you and your dreams, are there other people who will e.g. other relatives or friends?

It must be difficult at times with Tourett's Syndrome and I understand that can affect your life. But you aren't a bad person at all, and I'm sure that with a bit of work and support, you'll make your dreams a reality