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I can't imagine how you feel right now but you're really brave for reaching out here.

Like it's been said, I think you will benefit from reaching out. Perhaps when you're ready, you can tell your mom or someone else about what you have experienced. I know it can be very hard to reach out and that is something you can do in your own time.

Do you still have the images he has been sending to you? I know those must be upsetting, but I think it would help if you keep them. If you decide to tell your mom or report your step dad in the future, you could use them as evidence against him. Maybe you can keep them somewhere safe until you're ready to share your experiences.

In the meantime, I think talking about you're going through could help. You don't have to talk to anyone if you're not ready. You can post here, journal, or blog. A lot of people find blogging particularly useful. You can also try other things, like putting your emotions into a new hobby or distracting when your feelings become too intense.

Know that we're always here for you.