i have tried to work again.. i always skip lunch because I have no mood to eat, and i eat unhealthy food all the time. .
I don't even know if I'm that strong anymore... You already know that I kinda am badly broken.
Thanks. Though..It is heartbreaking and it is more than just that. I don't feel any emotions anymore..
I know who I am. I am someone who had a bad past and no one who I could count on in the past besides my family ( they always scold me and guilt trip me about everything and my mom always said harsh things in the past which was why friends are my secret haven ) .. and I am now in the worst possible state I can be in.
Thanks though.. Ellie.
You... deserve happiness.
Btw, yeah.. she was a big part of my life. We did everything from book fairs to movies to food trips to heart to heart talks together. Losing her was me losing a big part of what made my days good.