I'm glad to hear that you have alot of support and advice from your boyfriend;
and that your trying to help yourself.
Your defiantly on the right path even if it seems super tough and impossible.
When your feeling low just remember that no matter how difficult the situation is;
You can do this.
And as you mentioned alternatives, some may work for you and some might not.
You could always try drawing a body part and scribbling all over it with different colors - this is my distraction when I get an urge.
But if this seems too uncomfortable for you, I'm totally willing to look up some more until you find one that suits you.
Lastly, feel free to
pm me
anytime your feeling down or you simply need someone to talk to.
Take care.