[Kate*]

If I didn't know this was normal, I'd throw in the ultimate towel. I may not be stupid, but if my intelligence can never be used for anything, why am I fighting so hard to stay?

It's obvious you're trying to distract us away from the fact that you have no clue what you're doing, and think we won't notice. I noticed. Don't treat us like we're stupid.

I'd ask you this, but I know you won't tell me claiming that you can't treat me, even though I know that and that question doesn't mean I'm asking you to.

Very rarely, I think it was all worth it just for that. I'm glad it helped you, even if I failed afterwards. I wonder if that was a sign that I was in the right place because it felt so good, or the wrong place, because the way I did it wasn't the way they wanted it done, even if it was "right' because it showed you something in a way you'd never thought of it before. That's what I really want. Conversations like the one we had, that make people think and see things a different way. I'm still broken though, so it'll probably never happen.

Why are you pointing out that you're proud of her for being positive about her horrific circumstances?! If she wasn't, would you be encouraging her to be? Like you have the right to tell HER how SHE'S allowed to feel about HER situation? You don't.