[Kate*]

Can't sleep, but have to function and too tired to get up.

And those had been up for YEARS, now they're suddenly all gone. What gives?!

I told you so, I knew I'd prove you wrong.

And now I'm sick out of nowhere for literally no reason. Please don't let this be the flu, I actually have to do stuff soon.

I wanted to believe it was all going to be okay, but I cured an incurable optimist. You can be the one to tell my parents that I'm never going to amount to anything and my life and "potential", and "intelligence", etc. are all wasted. Not everyone gets a happy ending, I told you so.

This was taken care of 9 days ago, why the FUCK are we being threatened with FORECLOSURE?! Because you didn't read the directions for paying the last house payment and it's been hell trying to pay it off ever since. Good fucking job.

I've gone from wanting to give up over being emotionally drowned to wanting to give up because there is literally no fucking point. I'm ending up EXACTLY like the rest of them, doing nothing or ending up dead, and I didn't even have to try.