[NeuroBeautiful]

I'm never going to earn a wage
That's ever going to support me
I'm never going to be the age
That's ever going to soothe me*
I'm never going to find an escape
That can ever be safe and set me free

Im never going to be enough
Im never going to be worth it
Im never going to toughen up

Im never going to create my life
The way I need it
The way I imagined it
The way I can feel alive*

I see a wall going on and on
Searching for a door in the dark, alone
I'm wondering how long?
Will I find one at all?

There's thousands of others fighting for their life
While I am fighting so much for my death
I got no strength

I can't imagine a life beyond the walls
The world is so big and I'm so small
I am a big ball of perpetual nothingness

I'm never going to make it out there
I'm never going to make it out of here
I'm never going to make it through

I'm never ever going to make it through