[wanderlust]

i dislike when everything goes right for you because i want you to need me like the old days when you really looked up to me, but i want you to be happy at the same time.

i dont think i can take another rejection after the ecuador comp, much less from my whole year. Nobody realises i really do care about being head girl, it sounds stupid but if i dont get it i will cry and im not gonna tell anyone that i cared. Because i cant do the whole study thing, being loved is all i have.