[Kate*]

Up sick all night, and now have to function. I hate hormones.

I'm going to try this because you asked me to, but I've been at it daily for the last 2 years, I doubt I'll get anywhere in 2 weeks.

"You need to have some successes." No shit. But, people with this NEVER have that unless suicide counts. That's what I'm trying to tell you!!!! Further proof, I tried to do what you told me to, same as the last 2 fucking years, failed and spiraled immediately. I quit.

If I had options or success like you say I do and need I would've had them by now. This isn't a self-fulfilling prophecy because I tried and failed at everything first. I'm only going back to say I told you so because I did try, failed, spiraled, and quit. Maybe they didn't give me any because you're wrong and I really don't have any. They were all quick to offer help and they all gave up.