[.Brittany.]

Hi Nicole,

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I was diagnosed a few years ago and I relied on medication and counseling to get me through the rest of my schooling. I did have to go see a psychiatrist in order to get a proper diagnosis so that I could be properly medicated. I highly suggest that you do go see a new psychiatrist. I didn't really like mine, but I don't have to see him that much. Once we got medication sorted out I didn't have to see him anymore as my family doctor would take over unless my moods started to change drastically again.

I originally didn't want to get help, even though I was dealing with severe suicidal thoughts, just like you mentioned. I had acted against the thoughts a couple times. I had plans written down and everything. It was actually the teachers and security at the school that forced me to get the help by making me go to the hospital. That's when I started taking control of my mental health.

There are some people who refuse to go on medication all together and try and help their symptoms by themselves. I am not able to do that as I have a severe form of Bipolar disorder. You could try listening to music or watching TV. Another way that a lot of people cope is by exercising. Exercising is actually very good for you. Not only do you keep in shape, but also it releases endorphins to your brain which then releases positive energy to the rest of your body to help the chemical imbalance.

Here's a list of Hotlines that you can refer to if you're struggling and need someone to talk to. I hope you start feeling better soon. Dealing with the demons in your heard are always incredibly difficult and you are strong for dealing with them everyday. No one understands unless they have been through it like myself.

Stay Strong,
Brittany