[JazzyJazz]

Hi Courtney,

Thank you for reaching out to us, I hope we can be of help.

I can actually empathise with your situation because I myself struggled with formal education when I was your age, also due to anxiety and depression.

I think the best thing you can do is continue to be honest with yourself. It's no good continuing with this course just to please your sister if you don't feel that you can cope with it. You have to do what is right for you, not anyone else.

I was wondering though, have you spoken to anyone at college about how you are feeling? If the college knows that you are struggling, they can help, and you might find that this would enable you to manage things better and therefore avoid dropping out.

As Holly mentioned, college counsellors are a great source of help and I would encourage you to seek them out. They can help you to develop coping mechanisms for dealing with your anxiety and depression, plus there are other benefits such as not feeling alone with your issues and having a safe space at college.

Sleeping and eating are two of our basic human functions and it is therefore worrying that you are having difficulties with these because of the effect it will have on your health. My advice for sleeping is to practice deep breathing whilst listening to calming music/sounds. Here are a couple of examples from YouTube that I have found relaxing:

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Link 2

(The accompanying videos are of calming images, but I wouldn't advise watching them because the blue light emitted from your phone screen is known to make it more difficult to fall asleep. If you are able to, I would suggest downloading the music from one of the links listed in the video description.)

If sleep does not happen, don't panic. Even just resting your body and calming your mind is very beneficial.

When it comes to eating, try not to stress out about food. Eat as and when you are hungry, in small amounts. Don't get too worried about eating at set meal times; it will only add to your anxiety. Sometimes if eating seems too much for me, I'll make a smoothie instead. Perhaps you could try this.

I get the feeling that you are very overwhelmed with life at the moment, but please know that it doesn't have to be this way. You just need to reach out to people for help. I would encourage you to start with the college counsellor, or a counsellor in the community, and see how you go. There are options to get more intensive help with your issues by being referred to a psychiatric team via your GP. I don't know if you've been down that route before, but it would be a good idea if you feel that counselling is not enough.

Whatever happens, please don't feel like a failure and please don't think that there will never be a time when you can cope with studying. Sometimes we can manage to access the right help and get through things, but other times we need to take a step back and focus solely on our health.

I hope that you can find the courage to reach out for some support.

Best wishes,

Jasmine.