[Kate*]

This gets worse, not better and one of the first things she said to me was that there's nothing to do for it. It will likely cost me EVERYTHING I wanted out of life, and I wasn't asking for that much! May as well kill myself now. Almost 30 years of all the shit it caused(s) me was more than enough. The thing it culminated in was just icing on the cake.

Grow the fuck up! You wanted the power, not the responsibility that goes with it. You got both, you are completely fucking clueless, I'm screwed beyond comprehension, and instead of preparing, you're throwing tantrums like a G-D damn CHILD!

Hormones are killing me. This is a relatively new torture, but I get to deal with it monthly for at least 30 more years UGH

I don't lack empathy, I lack patience and you've spent my last fucking nerve. By the time that happens, I won't care, I just won't have it in me anymore.

Should've just let myself fall back to sleep like I did yesterday because now I can't.