[Briana]

Hey there. When I use to drink...that is exactly why I would. I liked how I felt while intoxicated. I felt like a "fun" person. Now that I am sober, I like myself even more than I did. And, my worst days sober...are still way better than my best days drunk. Before you pick up a drink, try to imagine how you would feel the next day and see if you can stop drinking on your own...a day...two...three, without a drink. Let your body detox, won't be easy, but the result of it, is amazing. If you are still struggling, I highly suggest you find a local AA meeting. Because, you said you do stupid things drunk, my only real worry about that, is eventually getting to that point where you do something really bad, while drunk. It is totally awkward at first to attend a meeting, but from my experience, it helps a lot. You don't have to talk, but at least go listen to what others have to say about alcohol abuse. Give it a go and see how it goes.
xx