[.Jess.]

Hey!
I think the fact that you have recognised that there is something wrong with the lifestyle you are leading is really positive. A lot of the time if you are suffering with depression it can be hard to admit to the fact that the way you are living is wrong and that something needs to be done to change it for the better. The first step to helping yourself and getting things back on track is being able to admit the problem.

Within depression it can be so easy to slip into the thought process of thinking nothing but bad things about yourself and your life but I think it's really important to try and let yourself think about the positive things in you life and the things you have going for you. I can see at least 3 things in your post that are positive and I don't even know you, so I am sure there are plenty more too, how would you feel about thinking through some of those good things?

I know all that ^^ sounds a bit lame but it really does work. You just have to change your mind frame and the way you are thinking. It's worth a shot isn't it?

If you feel your GP isn't helping you then to be honest I think you should tell him. It's their job to make you feel better and to offer you the services you need. I definitely think it would benefit you if you could, what do you think?

Taking your own life is never the way to go, things can never get so bad that they can't be changed. Things can always be put right and you told us you want to be happy, you can be happy, you can, it is possible you just need to get over these hurdles and I'm telling you that's more then possible. Look after yourself