[Kate*]

So much for you saying "just choose to be happy" and "choose to be suicidal or choose to get help" I'm sorry you're going through it because I'm mature enough to be supportive of you in spite of that. But, I hope you learn from this what it's really like and not to say that anymore.

I wanted to be every one of those things, and I can't be. Learn to handle this better next time. Fulfill your ethical obligations ethically I'm going to spend who knows how long dealing with the damage you did, and the kicker is that you knew better than to cause it in the first place. If I'm not mad anymore, it's only because I'm too tired to be mad. I think it's sad if the way you did it was the best you knew how to do. If it wasn't, I deserved better than that.