[Kate*]

I wish, since it's not going to happen, that I could stop wanting it, and stop thinking about it. And, I wish that the possible transition from most of a masters with a 3.7 to a 6 month certificate, wasn't such a shot to the ego.

For some reason that hurts right now, and yes, I still think that's creepy, but whatever. The fact that I still want it will always suck. I don't know if that ever goes away.

Just when I think I'm ready to consider moving on, I start missing the people who got it and that brings everything back, and then I'm haunted and I can't do this.