[NeuroBeautiful]

I snuggle with my cat
His gentle sweet purring
comforts me
He doesn't judge me
He doesn't hurt me
He doesn't punish me
He loves me

I feel so warm around him
But sometimes I don't believe him
I snuggle with my cat, but
I struggle with my cat
To trust this blessing as a blessing
I keep questioning
Is this a curse in disguise?


I anticipate all the ways he will leave
Death, illness, disease
What if he gets kidnapped?
What if I have to give him away?
What if he decides I'm not worthy?
So many possibilities

I don't consider the chance he will be with me for long
How can anyone love, such
a disgusting loser like myself?
How many times can someone listen to the same sad song?
Till they put their paw down and say they've had enough?