[Kate*]

We've been ahead in the world series from day one, and we've blown 2/3 chances to win it all. It's getting close and they're falling apart!

It's official, EVERYONE but me. How am I supposed to see that and not wonder if I did it to myself?! Or, that any professional I see won't assume the same. I already know they're human. That was the longest break I've gotten though.

Apparently it's not quite done haunting me. This isn't fun at all. Here we go again.

I would love some help. Too bad the only people I'm comfortable reaching out to can't do anything. Anyone else would be too much effort and risk.

It's been almost 2 years and I still can't believe it actually happened, I mean me of all people from there of all places. At least when I explain it, I don't look like the bad guy. I mean legal or not, doing it because of a disability sounds as wrong as it was. Not to mention that if, and/or when they decide you don't belong there (anymore), they turn their backs before you can even blink. This is the stuff of nightmares for a reason and I'm a lot less able than the average person to recover in the first place.