[Kate*]

Just because I understand why you did it, doesn't mean it didn't hurt. I trusted you and you lied in front of witnesses and then turned on me, and you were one of the few I didn't think would do that. If you wanted to help, you should've. If you didn't want to help you shouldn't have offered. If you offered and then it was over your head or you changed your mind, you should've said so; like I said, I understand why. Instead, you offered, in front of three other people (who also thought you were serious and couldn't believe you turned on me like that because it's so unlike you), then changed your mind, but said that you "didn't actually mean" it. If you change your mind, you say you changed your mind, not that the legitimate offer wasn't originally legitimate. And, this was not only an example of why I don't trust people, but another case of their/your behavior being blamed on me. You didn't change your mind for good reason, I misunderstood. Don't place blame where it doesn't belong.

"Nah, that doesn't really happen." I'm living it sweetie, yes it does.

I still want to tell you things, but I don't think I NEED it like I used to. I see all the changes happened. Part of me hopes that means better oversight and less control for all of you, but I know better. I want to believe his leaving had to do with what happened to me, but I don't think it did. I now the changes were a long time in coming, but I hope you learned something from what happened to me. I don't think I'll ever know where responsibility for my situation really lies. I know I definitely wasn't perfect, I know that was part of it, and I know you screwed me many times whether you admit it or not. I hope for the sake of the future you are less of a corrupted mess now. The fact that I have an idea of the truth brings me some comfort. I wonder if I actually was the longest dismissal process in your history or if it was because of the break and she said that to make me think otherwise. I also think it's weird, but I'm grateful, that the "last straw" didn't come up.