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Re: What it's like to have an eating disorder - April 26th 2009, 07:02 PM
. What some of the strongest emotions you felt when dealing with an eating disorder?
Shame at what i'm doing. Shame at the web of lies i'm spinning. Shame because I dont want to change. Shame, because i'm not strong enough to give up, but not strong enough to go as far as I want. And Fear. Fear that i've lost control. Fear that one day i'll be found out. That one day, I wont be able to carry on.

2. Did anyone ever confront you about it? And if so how did you respond?
Friends confronted me. I denied it. They knew I lied. So then I weakened it down, told them it was no big deal. Mum tried to, I twisted it against her.

3. Did you ever have a scary moments when your eating disorder lead to dramatic complications? If so what happened? (I.e. passing out, having to go to the hospital) The scariest are black outs. Not feinting, but your minds blanks. You find yourself on the floor no recollection of how you get there. I've had a lot of blood in purging, which is really scary.