[Kate*]

I could try to make you get it, but you won't. They aren't the same thing. I'm permanently stuck in the dead end jobs no one wants because I'm not capable of maintaining better despite not being stupid.

I feel like it was both forever ago and yesterday. Most of the time I still feel like I want it, but I have glimpses where I'd be okay doing something else. I still don't know what though.

You have a problem for every solution and I can't articulate how sick to death I am of your CONSTANT whining. Between that and them enabling the shit out of you I've had it. I'm enough of a mess without taking yours on too. I have depression too, but you don't hear me doing this do you?! No, because I know how to vent only to people who don't mind listening and when to shut the fuck up! Either treat the problem, be grateful for once in your life or STOP WHINING. And while I'm at it FUCKING EAT. IT'S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD

This is proof to me that if it's meant to be, it will be, but that still doesn't solve anything, help me figure out my own stuff, or answer my questions.

I'm officially sick of having no life, but I'm stuck in the momentum. Existing used to be enough because it's all I could handle, now I need more, but accounted for the disability and what I can do with the random episodes of depression that nearly end in suicide.