I cried silently
when I thought I had no voice
I rejoiced when I found it inside
I used my voice, because
I had no choice. I had to speak
I was shut up and out,
Interrupted, ignored
Always told, how I'm
Too soft, too slow, too weak
My blood boiled, my heart burned
Will I ever have a chance?
I came back and push my way through
And this time I scream and yell with full intensity
It is easy to think it was random, but I can tell you:
I scream because I was quiet too long
I scream because nothing is working
I scream because I am trying to be patient
but I have something to say
And I'm pushed to the sidelines
I'm still unheard and misunderstood
I'm the big bad wolf
Who huffed and puffed
Who frightens everyone away
who has sore lungs,
A strained voice
Who has scars all over
Like a constellation of stars
That no one knows how to navigate
Pretty sparkles shine from a distance
But im not worthy enough, for someone to learn my map
I am forgotten like im too lost in translation to learn my language
I have a language to my madness
And now I'm back to silent tears
Because I once had a voice, but now I don't
I let it break to pieces,
I lost it and now it's gone