[Kate*]

I'm still here, but I have no idea why.

I'd respond, but I'm sure they're all sick of me and I've already been attacked by that community enough for not being one of them. Ironic, since most people think I actually am.

I'd reach out to you in a last ditch effort to save myself, but I'm not your job anymore. Even when I was, no one did anything about it and if I expect too much and end up disappointed, it'll just make everything worse.

Gotta love when depression ruins your Saturday

I still don't want to deal with any of this crap that wasn't caused by me, and I don't want to deal with the fact that my life is in shambles. Instead of living my dream, I'm picking up the pieces. At least my GPA was spared, and if they didn't lie to me, my reputation.

Slept for 12 hours, woke up at 5 PM WTF

Walk ONE FUCKING DAY in my shoes. If you're still alive, we'll talk about you judging me for doing what I have to do to keep breathing. You're all a bunch of assholes. If either of us is immature, it's you.

I held on for so long for things that I know now are impossible. I'm done. There is absolutely no point in fighting this hard to have nothing and lose everything. And, as a side effect of all this, I'm fat now too. Fucking awesome.