Ever since i was little my doctor would always tell me i was shy and i was i would isolate myself from others,i usually wouldnt talk to people (unless im really good friends with them) i would avoid giving speeches,presentations,reading outloud because the whole scenario would make me nervous. I still am shy and i still do all those things im almost in high school and im still like this i cant even bring up a conversation with someone unless they talk to me because to talk to another person it takes all of my courage to do it ( i dont have alot of courage i have low self esteem) But in my house i talk alot because i feel like my mom and dad and sister are the only people i can talk to without feeling like this . Not to mention, i also hate talking because evrytime i talk i feel like im embarrasing my self or im saying something really stupid and i just feel evryone is judging me and criticizing me.
sometimes it would make me cry because i hate feeling like this i hate not being able to make alot friends because im so introverted and nervous . i try so much to tell myself that i just have to have confidence and i need to stop thinking negative thoughts i try so hard but it never seems to work its so stressful i hate feeling like this
and going to parties dont make me nervous its just that when ever i go to parties i dont even talk cause i just get nervous about what to say and i then as soon as i get to the party i want to leave cause i start to get nervous
I just wanna know if i have a problem or if i should tell my doctor about this?
I tell my parents i have friends kinda a huge group of friends but what i dont tell them is i never talk to them i just stay quiet not talking because i feel that if i do talk i feel like people will move away from me because im so boring in a conversation. i only talk to my friends i really know and trust . And whenever i go to my doctor she always says " how are you doing in school? do you have alot of friends? But i never tell her that im still shy