[Celyn]

I've gone through similar experiences, such as checking things were switched off. It started off just checking once or twice and then I was checking things at least five times. What helped me was to set a limit and constantly tell myself that I've already checked x amount of times and I don't need to check again. I think it's like a cycle where no amount of checking behaviour satisfies your mind so you keep on feeling the need to check more and more.

Like you, I hate being left in the house on my own because I get scared of the noises and don't feel safe. I think it can help to create a 'safety plan' such as knowing where everyone is and who you can phone if you have to. Try to walk around the house, rather than 'trapping' yourself in one room just to reassure yourself that no-one else is in the house and you are safe. My therapist also recommended getting some cheap CCTV cameras, to use to reassure you, but make sure that you aren't using them to keep yourself in the house.

As for work and such, you need to trust in yourself that you are doing things correctly, and if you are unsure, to ask, so that you aren't worrying over it. You need to trust that whatever life throws at you, you will be able to handle it (I know that's a difficult one to accept, I'll admit).

It's great that you will be on medication this week. It's also good that friends and family are aware of what you are going through...perhaps they can reassure you at times? It might also help if you can get some CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) with a counsellor or therapist, who will be able to help you find ways of managing your thoughts and behaviours.

Hope this helps