[Kate*]

I tried again because it's there, but I don't expect to get a third chance at it.

You NEED it and we need you to do it for our own sanity, just fucking GO already. Makes me sound like a horrible person, but I'm not sorry for saying it.

This headache is absolutely ridiculous

I can't stop thinking about that, but he thinks it's a bad idea and he was my go to recommendation for it, so I don't think it'll happen even if it would be fully paid for. I had no realistic chance anyway. I could do that instead, but it sounds so BORING and again, can't afford it. Could consider it as a back up plan, but a back up plan for what? There's no denying that it ruined my life, I really don't think I''ll recover from it.

Gained even more, fucking awesome.