[JazzyJazz]

Hello again.

He told you because he wanted to be honest with you. I guess this is one of those situations in life where ignorance was bliss.

Although I do question whether it was.

You have struggled in recent months and I wonder whether what he did to you has been affecting you without you realising. Even if your conscious mind wasn't aware of what he was doing because you were asleep, you would have been aware on some unconscious level.

I think it's good that you have contacted someone who may be able to help. At the same time, I think it would be worth you working through your feelings about this with a counsellor. Someone appropriate can often be found at a sexual health clinic. They are trained to help those who have been sexually abused and would be able to help you to deal with it emotionally. It's only natural for you to feel angry but, if you don't release those feelings, in the long term they are going to cause you more harm than you seem to want to cause him.