[Kate*]

-- Believe me, I HATE this more than you do, if you were whispering in the kitchen (I could hear you, but could't tell what you were saying) about what a horrible person I am, you may as well respect me enough to tell me to my face. It's not like I haven't been through enough or that I'm not doing worse to myself. If you were whispering about her so she wouldn't hear you, then never mind.

-- Is nothing sacred? As nice as it is to know you're on my side here, you didn't have to go tell her everything I said (which I assumed sparked the conversation that I assumed was about me) I probably won't tell you much anymore since I know you're just going to go behind my back to her and bash me in whispered tones. NOBODY has a CLUE what I'm dealing with and they aren't exactly receptive to having it explained. Either offer real help, or BACK OFF!

I've been thinking about reaching out to you again for a complete lack of someone better. I originally told myself that I would limit contact to twice a year at the most (so August or February would be the next time), but things are haunting me that probably shouldn't be and I don't know what else to do; or I do know what I should do and know it's not really an option. You said to let you know if I needed anything, but you always say that, so I don't think you mean it and my trust is so shot I can't even trust you with this. I think I want you to save me, but I know you can't.

"Demanding, disrespectful, and unprofessional" I could turn at least 2 of those back on you, but mine is the life that got ruined while you got to go on like it never happened. Not everyone agreed with you so that means something also and the only thing I ever "demanded" was to be treated like a human being with feelings, not get unnecessarily screwed over, and not to get blamed by people I expected the complete opposite from.