[Kate*]

I'm starting to remember why I didn't do that, aside from it being creepy. It's giving me a weird feeling that I don't like, making me remember good things I don't want to remember losing, and making me want something else that I'll never have.

No sleep again, awesome. At least I got a few good hours in before the depression hit; hopefully this isn't the beginning of a long slide, but I'm expecting it to be. Went back to a hobby I haven't done in about a year and realized very quickly why I stopped doing it. within 30 minutes I had fallen completely apart.

It's official, I wasn't wrong, I'll never be okay again and this pain will never go away. I want to tell you everything and have you make it okay, but it'll never happen so I'll have to move on without it unless I get a miracle. At the same time, I don't know if I could face him.

SERIOUSLY?!?! Everyone but me and everything I've been through! You'd better have a good plan because I can't take much more of this.