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Congrats on going two years free. I hope you know that two years free is a huge accomplishment. Have you ever considered rewarding yourself? Rewarding yourself and acknowledging your progress can boost your mood and motivate you to try to go longer without self-harming. You could even plan a future reward to work toward.

Do you know what has been making you think of cutting again? Is anything particularly upsetting going on in your life right now? It might help to write down possible triggers so you can cope with them now and in the future as well. While you're writing your triggers down, consider writing just to vent about you're feeling. Having a safe place to release what's in your head can do a world of good.

Do you feel like you can throw your new blade out? If not, do you think you can give it to someone you trust, like a friend or a counselor? Some counselors give you the choice of throwing it out or they'll keep it and give it back to you later as part of the therapeutic process. If you can't throw it out, maybe you can hide it. You could put it up high in your closet or in a different room from the room you'd usually harm yourself in so you can get distracted when you go to find your blade.

What alternatives have worked for you for the past two years? Let yourself fall back on them. You could also look for some new alternatives to mix things up, too.

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