[Kate*]

Considering how part-time this job is, it seems like a lot more trouble than it's worth. Most of it is sorted out now except fixing my W-4, notifying Medicaid so I don't get in trouble, and waiting for the manager to call me with my first day/schedule. Guess what? I don't want it anymore, I want my old life back so bad right now. I want better for myself than what's expected from people with this diagnosis, I'm lost and miserable, and I hate it.

It's like that pharmacy commercial says, I'm at the corner of "life won't ever be what I imagined" and "Still not okay with it" I doubt they have any quick solution to this one.

Considering how good I am at it without pressure, I'm not convinced it would've been impossible, especially with the crap that went on behind the scenes there. I want to finish it SO bad right now.

I am hired, right? You were supposed to call with the schedule by now.