Re: Screaming thread. -
March 24th 2016, 11:48 AM
Dear God,
I already prayed for my heart to stop beating. Why am I still living? I said I don't want to anymore. Are you even listening? Please. Take me away from this world. I want to die. Please.
Dear Parents,
Yeah. That's it. Tell me I'm worthless. That'll help. Tell me I'm a disgrace. That'll make me feel better. I'm tired of this. Everyday. I don't care anymore. You could as well be shouting at the walls for all I care. I'm ruining my life? I don't think so. I don't have to do that since you're doing it for me already. Thank you for making me what I am.
Dear 'friends',
You suck. Don't ever tell me it's going to be okay. Don't you dare tell me you can relate. Don't you ever even TRY to understand me. And don't expect me to tell you everything and approach you. Why should I? You don't deserve it. I'm always here for you and yet you're never here when I need you. I give you all, you give me none.
Dear Best Friend,
I love you. Thank you so much for trying to understand me. Thank you for being here and trying to help out.
Dear Guardian Angel,
You know I love you more than anyone/anything else. Why are you always so busy? Why can't we spend more time together? Why do you not love yourself, do you not see how amazing you are? How can you hate yourself when you are YOU? Don't you get it? You're amazing and you always will be. How hard is it to comprehend that you're a good person? What should I do to convince you?
Dear (I don't even know who this is addressed to),
I always do my best to love you. I'm always being kind and polite. I don't ever say anything even though you annoy the hell out of me. How many times will you disappoint me? Quit telling me you're sorry. Cuz I know you aren't. I love you with all my heart and I'm always doing sweet things for you. But you don't ever make me feel loved. Yet I say nothing. I don't expect anything back from you. But the least you can do is acknowledge it. And whoever you are, it doesn't hurt to let me know that you care. And a kind deed or sweet thing done once in a while would be nice, for a change.
I'm tired.
Dear Heart,
Please stop beating. I don't need you to supply blood anymore. Why cant you just take a break? 3 minutes is enough, I'll be brain dead. That's good enough. I don't wanna feel anymore.
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